my inevitable enterprise

What can I say; I sit here thinking…wow… I am almost done with school and I feel nothing, well I feel relief but, no excitement, no great joy of completion. My vast empty feeling is one that has been part of my venture since the beginning of my ever-expandable reach to spread out my wings in the fight of knowledge. I know what I want, yet there is a feeling of reaching for that something that is attainable but slightly out of reach.
I guess I am starting to feel like…where to next? I know what I am going to do next, but what about after that? It is the “after that” with which I have a problem with.
“After that” is what? Perhaps I am worrying about a feeling that should have no merit. “After that” is nothing because I guess it has not happened yet and I do have some control over what will happen…right?
I think I just scared myself into thinking that I would end up being a vacant casing of regret…I feel better now that I have shared how I feel. My inevitable enterprise, which is to broaden my need for experiment and experience in the dominion of education is only beginning. Therefore I should embark upon the boulevard of “after that” with the hi beams on, that way I can see what is coming or at least be prepared for as much as I can, because I can never be truly prepared for the “after that.”

About all this nonsensical writing. I feel that at times I have to write in circles until I feel better about how I am feeling. I hope everyone can relate. Feel free to add any comments.

Since one ever does (you losers, you know who you are) I’ll feel like no one cares about me and the little feelings I have towards the people that call themselves my friends will start to fade and then poor little me will have to make new friends…oh no what to do?
If you eat that crap up I also have a broken nutcracker you can buy from me because you need a broken nutcracker with all the holidays coming.

got to love the peeps
-m

Listening to: Smog

NEW
My movie/show reviews:

The Venture Bros. = CRAZY CARTOON FUN!!!
The Venture Family fights the Monarch Butterfly
Plus a great assortment of villians in a 13 episode extravaganza.
Adult humor, not for the kiddies.